Still here

It has been a few days since i last posted, this doesn’t mean i stopped my daily practices. All the hubbub of the season has left me very little time to come and write.

I have kept up with my meditations and will update on my Air related week very soon.

Still have to finish up some of the gifts, this year most of my gifts were made by me, so my hands are really occupied with that =) Will post here a picture of the goodies baskets I have prepared, still need a couple of more things and they are good to go.

Daily Tarot Draw : The Sun

The Sun

This week’s draw refers to a topic very dear to my heart. In a not so distant past, me and my partner were trying to conceive or first child. The months turned into years and every month would be like reopening a wound that was just starting to heal. We stopped trying, it was getting too much for us to bear. Now some time has passed since and we want to start trying again. So I asked the cards if there is hope, if we can allow ourselves to hope.

The card has a very auspicious meaning, the Sun all-conquering. Misery giving way to joy, a dark phase closing and light in the end. I hope that the child we yearn for is what lies in the end of this closing cycle.

Elemental Correspondence

Following yesterday’s 101 session I started thinking about the elemental correspondences.  So far i came up with this list of things that I associate with each element. I will keep working on the list until I am satisfied with it.

Air	Earth	Fire	Water
Spring	Autumn	Summer	Winter
Dawn	Dusk	Noon	Night
Yellow	Brown	Red	Blue
Censer	Salt	Candle	Bowl of water
Ideas	Grounding	Destruction	Cleansing

Living in the Moment

Today was I as taking the usual bus trip to work I saw a rainbow. It was beautiful, it had a complete arch and the colors were so vivid against the gray. I was contended at that moment, nothing else was there just that rainbow that I was lucky enough to see. No one else on the bus noticed it, everyone was to busy worrying about worries, real and imaginary. If only they knew the bliss of the moment. I am teaching myself to let go more, to live life as it comes, enjoy every moment and if it is not an enjoyable moment grief for short time and move on.

A friend of mine died in 2005 we were only 22 then, rather selfishly I didn’t think about him, he was no more, all that was left were the moments we shared. I thought about me, if I had died instead of him my life would be so empty, too much work and worries, worries about the future, about fitting in, about money, about love, about a lot of things.  From that moment, I changed I let go of some of my fears that were holding me back from living. Now I don’t think I would enjoy a rainbow as much if that friend hadn’t died. I stopped being angry at him because he left us but loved him for making me realize that life is too short to live in the Future we should live in the Now.

Update

As i thought maintaining a daily draw would be quite difficult for me, out of 24 hours, 8 are spent a sleep, 9 at work, 2 commuting to and from work which leaves roughly 5  hours for everything else.  So I decided to make Thursday the tarot draw day and make meditation an everyday thing.

Yesterday was my day tending Brigid flame and it burned all the hours it was safely possible and all the hours that couldn’t, an object that embodies fire was used to represent her flame. I took advantage that yesterday the Goddess of the home and crafts was a guest in my home to advance some of the crafty projects I have to finish by the holidays. It went rather well I think must have been all the positive vibes.

Waiting for the second episode of Spiritscast 101 and doing already the homework required, things we take for granted.

• Moon — Goddess
• Sun – God
• Pentagram – four elements + spirit
• The meanings of ritualistic tools (Cauldron, Broom…)
• Cardinal points and their element correspondence.

From the top of my head and just re-reading them and thinking about it, I have no clue why some have the correspondences they have.  Some of the things your learn they have and don’t really think more about it =/ Need to do something about that.

PENTACLE

Daily Tarot Draw : Ace of Pentacles

Ace of Pentacles

Yesterday I didn’t draw a card so this one is referent to the 26th of November.

I asked if in the next five years I will be able to move to the UK. I have planned it for a while and saving all extra cash for it.  This card is definitely an encouragement, it means all the hard work is probably going to pay out in the end. I will just have to keep work to achieve my goal and it will come to pass.

Ramblings

Funny how life works, I came to this 101 simply connect to other pagans and getting a daily practice going. My Pagan ways were only prominent on high days, I felt that I needed more.  I discovered and confirmed some things in my life already and those are major breakthroughs for me. I am feeling calmer and happier than I have in a long time, not because of my life is particularly better, but because I seem to have a clearer understanding of myself.

On a lighter note, Yule tide is rapidly coming upon us and I for one love this season. This weekend I will start decorating my home for the season. Plenty of candles to light the darkened days and this year an actual tree.  And I can’t forget all the baking, hmm yummy cookies. I am starting to digress, cookies have that effect on me.

A bit about my Achilles heel, meditation. I was browsing online yesterday for information about meditation and guided meditation. And I discovered a wonderful site http://www.meditationoasis.com it has a podcast section with wonderful guided meditations, perfect for people like me who struggle a bit.

I settled in bed and started playing session #5 – Simply Being, the voice in the recordings is so calming and soft it really helps you relax and ease into a meditative state. I don’t think I have slept this well in a long time. I would like to thank Mary & Richard Maddux for having taken the time to start the podcasts.

Daily Tarot Draw: Five of Cups

Five of Cups

I wasn’t to happy to see this card come up yesterday. I asked if I am going to fix some of my neuroses that affect my current relationship. I am going to consider this a warning, a wake up call. Even thought the bent and distressed figure is turned to the 3 spilled cups there are still 2 cups up. I already wasted many chances and took the relationship for granted, not changing my behaviour and pushing things to far. I hope that if I start now there is still a chance to mend things and make the relationship stronger. Taking the two cups left in hope that no lasting damage is done.

Fire Meditation

Burning candle

Yesterday before retiring to bed and a good book I did a bit of fire meditation. Got a nice fluffy pillow and sitting myself in front of a burning candle. Staring at it and doing some belly breathing (inhaling filling first the chest and next inflating the belly and exhaling deflating the belly and then the chest). First few minutes were spent just trying to stabilize the breathing, easing into the pose and relaxing. Silly thoughts kept creeping in my head, stuff I had to do, people I have to talk to. Mundane nonsense that keeps clouding our mind, that keeps us from living life to the fullest.

Meditation is really hard for me to do, I don’t seem able to quite my mind, am I afraid to let my inner thoughts be heard? Maybe I am,  its definitely something I have to work into.

Daily Tarot Draw: Wheel of Fortune

Wheel of Fortune

This is draw was still concerning the same question of the one before.

And the card just confirm the change that is coming, that needs to come. I definitely feel that a cycle is ending and another, more bright and fulfilling is starting. Some of the imagery of the card suggests not knowing what is coming, I at this moment don’t much care. I just need to turn a page and start over a fresh.